And when I finally lit the pyre,
someone called my name.
And when I saw him through the fire,
we looked just the same.
And when I finally lit the pyre,
someone called my name.
And when I saw him through the fire,
we looked just the same.
All those ages past.
All these ancient gods.
All of these organs, bodies, and bones
tossed into all these fires.
All these prayers and offerings
of flesh, gold, and precious stones.
And the scent of all these flowers
and perfumes to hide
the stench of rot.
All these signs and sigils,
symbols, runes, and ruins.
All these spirits of light and dark,
summoned by all these tongues
speaking spells of power.
All silent now.
All dead forever.
All covered
in soil and sand
for
all time.
The tales grow brittle,
left untold,
The incantations, dry.
The knight, the dragon,
and the maid forgotten,
left to die.
The warrior and the quarry
cease their endless chasing game,
and all the wild in all the world
is culled, and dulled, and tame.
The story-laden stars go dark.
The magic creatures cry.
The lantern flowers give no light,
and fae no longer fly.
Beware the rift of magic
separated from the earth.
No hero comes to save the day.
There is no death or birth.
The stories lay forgotten now
on dusty, splintered shelves.
Thus we abandon to the void
the better of ourselves.
Silent now,
this once rambunctious band
of warriors.
All of them
silent now,
except me.
All these years later,
I still remember
the Elder’s advice
as she covered her knees
with her blanket.
“The cause you fight for
will never be absent
in the world,
for the hearts of men are
ever self-serving.”
She watches from among the stones
and remembers the day
she saw her son die.
I mourn with her,
prayerful, fearful,
in the light as she fades from view,
her tears gray as
rainclouds,
and colder than
death.
I’ve been made to understand
you’ve tamed the voices in your head,
and slaughtered to silence those
around your heart.
It’s no small thing you’ve accomplished.
You must yell ever louder,
and cut yourself until they bleed too.
Twist them slow and painfully,
like a rusty top forcefully pried
off the warped rim of a broken jar.
Grind them until their screams stop.
Take, then, the piece of you that survived the
furnace and the crucible,
and withstood the elements
of scientific arrogance
eroding the world,
and escape to
the quiet of your soul.
Watch the chaos of life leak,
streaking down the windows,
streaking down your face,
in the silent wailing
of the tamed voices,
and name yourself their
Master.
How are there candles burning
in these shadowed, drafty halls?
How is it that I gaze upon
the bones within the walls?
There are no parties held here now,
no balls or grand affairs,
so why do I see people laugh and drink
and talk in pairs?
The voices started softly, gently,
calling out my name.
And by the end I yelled and cried,
but no one ever came.
The halls are bright and festive now,
and full of fever dreams.
The voices and the laughter drown
the terror in my screams.
And still the candles burn here,
ever melting, never gone.
I guess I am the lighter then,
so I’ll be moving on…
The darkness is an old friend and familiar lover.
Evil slips me on like a knife’s sheath,
and the demons of dead things walk in my wake.
They whisper love as evil,
and cut to drink from feeding veins
like children with straws bent and circled
back on themselves, watching
the dizzy, helpless liquid
unable to resist the pull
of its destiny.
The darkness smiles at me,
releasing a hint of lavender to
bring me through the
noisome rot of old, toppled stones
and trees that have seen too many
secret trysts of betrayal.
It is all one to me,
a final wanton plunge into
forbidden pleasures of torture eternal,
and I am forbidden to ever return.
For I am old and lonely, child.
My time is growing short.
The fiendish things inside this place
now hunt us for their sport.
For I am tired and weary, child,
of things that chase and bite.
The fiendish things within these walls
pursue us through the night.
Well I am sick of running, child.
I think that I will stay
to fight the fiendish at our backs,
so make your getaway.
I only ask, remember me
as you live out your days,
and never use your magic gift
for learning fiendish ways.
I hear them growing closer, child.
My violent end is nigh.
To die in crimson polyglot’s
a soldier’s way to die.
Now run! Make haste! Go quickly, child.
But first, a kiss farewell.
And don’t look back to see the swarm
of fiendish things from hell.
Alone within the shadowed crypt,
I face the demon horde.
And make my peace with holy gods,
and draw my heathen sword.
I walk among preserves,
not people.
A world-weary wanderer
weary of his travels,
but restless in his soul.
These stone and ivy ruins,
these empty, rain-slicked city streets,
these brown, bare, and dying forests,
these deserts, almost empty of their sands
as if the old gods turned a
cosmic hourglass
all turn to ash beneath a
merciless sun.
I see them, these presences.
They hail me in greeting, waving as I pass,
weep in their newly refreshed grief,
and chase and curse me
in their superstitions.
Their children run up to me,
and sing to me,
tugging at my clothes and hair,
encircling me in their games
that light up their young, ancient faces,
their silent laughter fully formed in echoes of time.
They all linger just outside the senses
like lights flickering on the sea,
instantaneous glimpses
of what was,
and what will be again.
“Wait for us,” they say. “We will return.”
I long to sit, and eat, and rest,
but over it all,
the emptiness and solitude
goad me ever onward,
my own essence
lingering still among them.
I hope it brings them comfort.
They bring the dead musicians here
inside the Bardic Gates.
There’s always music playing when
another grave awaits.
Another bard to fill it,
or perhaps a troubadour…
It doesn’t really matter.
If you’re resting here, you’re poor.
Beware of passing late at night.
The music pulls you in,
and once inside there’s no escape.
You can’t outrun your skin.
The music slowly changes you
to something that you’re not.
And spirits wander restlessly
as bodies slowly rot.
The spectral dancers waltz across
the brittle, frozen grass.
But here, there’s no nobility,
nor wretched underclass.
For music is a thread of life
that stitches trouble’s tolls,
so ever will eternal Death
fill earth with Bardic souls.